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Friday, 29 June 2007

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I'm Like a Bird
By Nelly Furtado
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Past Life

I'm convinced that in a past life I was a bird, a beautiful bird that could fly free wherever she felt like going. Across the water, through forests, sneaking peaks at peoples private moments. Having a birds eye view of the world, traveling to new places, whereever the wind drifted me. Feeling the breeze travel through my wings, catching the wind as if it were my wave to my surfboard. If I wasn't a bird then I'm quite convinced I was at least 1/3 of a trio; a man, his significant other and their best friend, their dog. Free to come and go as they chose, no one demanding their attentions. Picking up and going on the weekends whereever the long and winding road may have taken us. Marking places off on a map as you drove, things you've seen, making a list of new places to explore the next weekend. You may ask how I came to this conclusion. Well I'll share it with you. I ache to travel. I don't just mean I would like to travel some day, I honestly ache when I think about all the places in this world that I may never see. The thought that I won't upsets me more than I can imagine. I don't think my husband understands, nor do I think he ever will. I think in a past life I was a free soul, one with no commitments, one with no obligations, I feel it tugging at me, nagging, whispering in my ear. I'm not unhappy with the life I'm living, but I'll grow unhappy if the traveling doesn't happen. It will continue to nag and tug, whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

Thursday, 28 June 2007

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Back to Black
By Amy Winehouse
Tears Dry On Their Own
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Not My Mother's Way

So I'm doing the dishes and I'm thinking of 23048570324 other things I'd rather be doing than the dishes. So as I finish up I take the washcloth to the laundry room and realize that I need to change the laundry around, so I change the laundry around, then one of the boys hollers that he needs the tape, so I get him the tape all the while thinking about how I just want to go lay down. So I finish all of that and I sneak off to my room and I lay on my bed. And I think to myself, (no, not a wonderful world) wow, I can't even picture my mom laying down in the middle of the evening. I don't remember what we used to do in the evenings when we were all home when I was younger, but I can assure you I never caught my mother laying in her bed. I know that when she got home from work she cooked dinner, cleaned the kitchen and then who knows what else. It's all I can do to cook dinner and then help clean the table off. I think it's our generation, or maybe it's just me. Yea I think it might just be me. I'm lazy. I'll admit it. But sometimes...you just gotta do it. So, off I go to clean the bathroom...bah.

Tuesday, 19 June 2007

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Parachutes
By Coldplay
Yellow
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Hmm...
Ok so I've tried blogging a bazillion times, usually I just blog as an outlet to my frustrating days or whatever. So maybe I'll try it again. Whatever.

Random:
- There is a dead spider on my wall. I killed him. He's been there for about a week. He's starting to creep me out.
- Me and my best friend have been playing the Lyrics game on MySpace for roughly 5 days straight. I think that's hilarious.
- My husband surprised me with a 3-month anniversary card. Totally unexpected.
- McDonald's has the best Cinnamon Melts. The best. I mean it. Really. Try them.
- My wedding album from my first marriage is sitting on my desk. I think I'll give it to my sons when they get older. I don't know. Maybe I'll throw it away.
- I have absolutely nothing to wear to work today. Blech. I don't wanna go.
- I complain to big companies a lot...and that gets me free stuff. In the past three weeks I've gotten: free tampons, free razors, a gift certificate to Payless, free breakfast at Cracker Barrell. I complain for valid reasons.
- My back is killing me, I'm convinced it's Mother Nature after me.
That is all I have for today. Yea I know, that sucked. :)